Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Freak Out Recovery

Well, Monday's post was clearly a freak-out on my part. Some of you probably saw I made a comment which I removed because it was just me being mean to myself. No one really needs to read that.

In a plight to conquer my procrastination of life, I had a realtor assess our house to see if moving to the "greener side" is even a possibility. I mean why even waste time thinking (whining) about something that's not even an option, right? The realtor called me today and it's settled. California home prices have taken such a hit in this recession that moving is not an option right now. Done.

I've taken up (trying) to run my office building stairs in an effort to get back to exercising. It's sad, but hey, it's something. I want to win my life back and I'm willing to work hard. I don't need to be Hollywood skinny, but I'd happily settle for healthy. I'm going to do what I can. I know I'm not the only one who struggles with balance, but if it can be achieved, I'm your girl.

I think as mom's we put too much pressure on ourselves to do EVERYTHING. I think I freaked out because I want to fix everything in my life TODAY and I just can't. It's going to be a long road and I need to find a way to stop and smell the roses as they say. Maybe it's a control thing....who knows. I do know that we have become a society of immediate gratification, myself included. I've learned (and keep learning) that achievement cannot be measured this way.

My kids will learn to deal with adversity the same way they see me deal with it. Luckily this blog has become my cheap therapy. I vent, then I go home and just love them. My life will never be what it was two years ago, but I won't be the same either. Hopefully I'll find a way to be stronger and happier with less.

By the way, I bought a lotto ticket today....cross your fingers :-)

1 comment:

  1. well...i'm not a mom, buy a know one pretty well...and she sure does put enormous pressure on herself to do everything! the fact is, that we all can strip down. live more simple lives. the lost list of "have to's" can really be broken down to a more manageable list of "need to's". it just requires us to simplify. create some margin. and're house is great. the grass isn't always greener. great post!