Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Reunion Time

REUNION. I never thought this was going to be such a dirty word. My 15 year reunion is right around the corner and I keep getting these stupid Evite reminders to make up my mind and decide whether I'm going or not. Right now I'm a "Maybe." Man, 15 years. It sounds worse when I say it out loud...

At one point I was REALLY looking forward to going to my high school reunion-like 10 years ago when I thought I was going to be thin, successful and definately envied. If you've read my previous posts, you'd know I do not feel like much of any of these things right now.

I admit to trying to check out the majority of my class via Facebook to gauge my RSVP and I'm not proud of it. Facebook is a big step for me. I'm not into social networking or reconnecting (no judgement if you are, it's just not my thing). Anyone I still talk to from high school (like one or two people) are all I need. Who has time with work, kids and family to have superficial relationships?!

Anyway, I digress....I have one week to RSVP to this thing and quite honestly, I don't know if I can do it. I'm thinking that this reunion can be my catapult to jump starting my healthy life. I am a huge fan of perseverance by humiliation. I'm not bigger than admitting I care what people think. It's how I finished a marathon. Surely, I can lose 30 lbs.

Last night at dinner I did the "should I?" or "shouldn't I" with my husband weighing in. His response, "Go if you want to." Of course I WANT to go, but for all the shallow reasons I stated above. I've always thought it was a silly concept to not do something just because you felt "fat" and here I find myself doing just that. While it's been 15 years since high school, clearly not a lot has changed. I have 7 days to decide... Ugh...

1 comment:

  1. i say go. do it. you'll regret not going. it will be fun, once you get there. :-)