Tuesday, October 13, 2009

So Tired...

Overall I have a good life. I have great kids, a good husband a nice house and a job in an otherwise struggling economy. But I am so, so, so tired. I am so tired today that I couldn't even say my name or formulate a coherent sentence this morning when I got to work. Throw in some wicked wind and rain, a flooded freeway and a sick baby and well, you get the picture. I live on about 4-5 hours of interrupted sleep a night and I never ever get everything that needs to be done, done.

I know people make fun of me for playing the Lottery. How do I know? Because they tell me so. "Oh, quit talking about winning the lottery" "You know, it's never going to happen, right?" Call me crazy, but I play the Lottery because it gives me hope. If I thought that I was going to wake up every day for the rest of my life this tired and stretched thin, I would lose it. I will not apologize for fantasizing about getting to be a stay-at-home mom or for having a maid (yeah, lottery or not, probably not). Seriously though, wouldn't we just quit pushing forward if life didn't seem like it would ever be what we had dreamed of? Maybe we don't achieve it all, but a stalemate is unacceptable for me.

Will I reallllly win? Probably not, but I know I never will win if I don't make a few plays at it. In my humble opinion, getting "hope" for a buck is not too shabby. Take that, you killjoys! :-)

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