Monday, December 7, 2009

Good Enough

This might be the longest I've gone yet without posting this year. The holiday season began right before Thanksgiving and seriously, there is no end in sight. Between family flying into visit and everyone wanting "time with the kids" there has been no down time for our family. Everything seems like a rush...I just want it to stop.

Work has been an absolute fiasco with the end of the year approaching and I have had little time to breath, much less write. Of course there is inner-office drama all over the place and with predominately female coworkers you can only imagine how our minds take off. It's so funny to me that my company is male governed, yet female run. It's so interesting to watch the president of our company challenge our egos by instilling fear in us. When he does a site visit, we all feel a little sick because you never know what or who he's going to go after. He's a pleasant man, unless he feels it's time to revitalize your fear of his authority. He thinks that if he challenges your "man/womanhood" you'll step up to the plate.

Women don't work this way; I don't work that way. We are loyalty and reason driven, not necessarily ego driven. We don't want to be thought of as stupid, so therefore we work really hard to do a good job. On the contrary, we just get pissed off and start planning our victory when we feel as though we are wronged. you. Thank goodness for women's lib, right? Now we can run the work place, keep our houses clean and all the while be good mothers and wives. Ask my husband, he'll tell you how successful I am (or not).

I feel like I'm constantly juggling work and home and dropping either is not an option. When I first went back to work I told my daughter to just hold on for three years. She has never forgotten and reminded me the other day that there is less than one year left on my promise. I tell her all the time that as long as she does her best, that's good enough. I don't know how to explain to her that I'm doing the best that I can and it's not even close to good enough. I'm trying to plan for the future, but today I just want to survive.


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