Monday, August 23, 2010

One Wish...

My sister is getting married and Saturday we (both my sisters and the 3 kids) hit a bridal shop to try on dresses. At Matron of Honor, I can't miss these things. Thankfully, my kids were SO good. I needed this on the coat tails of a pretty spicy summer with them. Both of my sisters were so sweet to them and they were so happy to see them.

My sisters really made every effort to include them in the dress buying process. My big kid picked out a few dresses for my sister to try on and she did so without any complaining. My son was given the "vote" so each time my sister came out he either gave a thumbs up or a thumbs down. Baby slept most of the time thankfully, but once she awoke the other sister totally helped in laughing and playing with her. It was exhausting, but really good to be with all of them.

At the end of the day, my sister-getting-married came to me and told me about my Big Kid's wishes. She told me that has they were getting in and out of dresses in the room together, my Big Kid was quietly making wishes. She asked her what she was wishing for, but was told she couldn't tell because they wishes may not come true. "Oh come on, just give me one" my sister said. "Okay, but you can't tell or might not ever come true." "Okay, what is it" "I wish my mommy wouldn't go to work and that she'd stay with us forever - but don't tell!" My sister didn't know what to say. She said it was both the saddest and sweetest thing she'd ever seen. I believe her...

Sometimes I forget that my big kid is still just a little kid. This morning at 4:30am I felt a tug on my blankets. "Mommy, can you please scoot over? I'm cold." "Honey, I have to get up in a little bit, just me trade you places." "No, Mommy, stay. You don't have to leave us today. It's Sunday." For a quick second, I believe her and scoot. "Thanks, Mommy" "Anytime, baby" and I shut my eyes. Twenty five minutes after that my alarm went off bringing my Monday to a reality.

I love all of them. Like them, I wish I could be home too but right now I just can't. I hope they know I'm trying to get back home with them and simultaneously that if I don't if I love them the same. I'm trying...until I get there it's these small exchanges between us I hold onto the tightest.

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