Tuesday, February 8, 2011

A New Day

I have to remember that it doesn't matter how long I've been here, Mondays are ALWAYS hard for me.  Changing gears from "Mommy" to "Boss" is still not a natural transition for me.  Yesterday, I let my insecurities boil over and freaked myself out - shocker, I know.  Today is a new day and it's going to be better (even if I have to kick someones ass to make it happen).

Options are never a bad thing.  In theory, choices should improve our ability to control our destiny - and they do - if you make the right decision.  I'm not going to lie, as much as I look forward to leaving this job, it is a little daunting to think about losing this paycheck and depending on my husband.  It feels good to contribute to our family monetarily, but crappy when you cannot find the balance of equally contributing to their lives. It will be an easy decision to leave when the time comes...I hope.  I think I will ultimately go back to teaching if I have to do something and this will be a happy medium.

My sweet baby girl looked up at me this morning as I kissed her goodbye and said "I go with you Mommy?" "No Baby, I've got to go to work" "I ride in your car!" "Not today, Baby...maybe next time?" This was followed by about five "Why's" then "Okay, Mommy."  She gave me the best hug and kiss and sent me on my way...She is the best thing I ever begged my husband for. And, I know he would agree.

Eye on the prize, EYE ON THE PRIZE...

Happy Tuesday everyone!



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